Hello, today is a black day for me: my grandfather passed away this morning. Thankfully he passed away in his sleep. He was diagnosed with lung cancer 2 years ago; the docters gave him just a few more months but he was fighting the cancer off long enough to celebrate his 80th birthday which was last week. Although I am writing my thoughts down, I can’t possible describe what he meant to me and how much it hurts to know what I won’t be able to be talk to him. Ever.

It has strange that I only now realize what he meant for me and how much he has done for me for which I am thankful. He has been a great example to me. He always encouraged me to construct something, whether it was Lego or software development, it didnt matter. He had a great influence on my career choice and one of the reasons I am who I am now.

‘Opa’, I will never forget you,

thank you for everything

I drowned myself in my work today but I realize that is no way to deal with the loss. We all go have to deal with losing a loved one at some point in our lives, I thought I prepared myself for it but it still hit me like a rock. I have no ‘cure’ for this pain but I can tell you that writing your feelings down helps me deal with it. Maybe it is the hope this post will leave a trace so my grandad won’t be forgotten.